This week, I began another round of meditating with Deepak Chopra and Oprah. The first day's meditation was an interesting experience for me.
Part of the newness actually began during my ZB class. For the first time, when I experience energetic shifts, or try to "visualize" during meditaiton -- I actually get visuals in my head.
The first question upon which we are meditating this round is "Who Am I?"
Deepak suggested that once you've listened to your deeper self for the answer to that question - you ask it again. And again ... and again...
So, I asked myself, Who Am I?
and recognized the patterns that we all go through when we consider that sort of question.
We define ourselves by who we're related to, what we do or have done ...
But the fact that I am or have been a wife, mother, teacher, daughter, massage therapist, lawyer, knitter, reader, police dispatcher, cat owner, home owner, chocolate lover, hiker, swimmer, dancer, actor, singer, lover, waitress, friend, student, tv-watcher, crocheter, omnivore, snake owner, horse-back rider..... and many other things ... doesn't define who I am.
Sure, who I am is certainly informed by my relationships -- who I am was formed by my parents, my grandparents, my friendships growing up, my teachers. It has been molded by my education, my jobs, my life choices -- by having children, each of my jobs, my current friends, and even my hobbies. But all of those things are not Who I AM.
One thing I came to understand about who I am is that I am not static. You can't define me with an adjective. We have to go to the verb list. Who I am is about BEING ...
I still don't have the answer ... but I'm learning it.